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Enough.

2012-02-28T16:45:00.001+08:00

Enough of life, enough of both the good times and the bad times, enough of everything.
I had enough. I had made up my mind. Shall not drag it any longer. The longer we take, the more we suffer.

It's something I wanted to do 4years ago. Why not just let me fulfill my own wish, right? If god wants me to live, I'm sure I will be able to pull through it. Don't make me change my mind anymore. Let me do whatever I want. I already had enough. Although there's this thing I haven't had enough, but well. It's over. Everything.

I wanted to be a camp instructor since I was sec 2. I'm happy that I fulfilled my wish. Nevertheless, it was not an easy job. Throughout everything, I have my reasons for joining and why I didn't give up at times no matter how tough or hard it was. My previous camp instructors inspired me. They gave me fun and taught me important lessons in life. I want to bring fun to the kids and teach them about life too. I want this to go on and on. It will be awesome. But life is too tiring, for me. No matter how well I did, people only remembered the bad ones. Enough of it already.

I love camping, I love camp High Achievers.

The last thing I'll ever fulfill myself, is to do whatever I want.

Life.

2012-02-27T20:11:00.001+08:00

People like you makes me doesn't wants to go on in life. You make me feel like dying. And then there came this guy, trying to pull me back to my senses. Asking me to live.

Love.

2012-02-27T09:55:00.001+08:00

We both know, we both agreed, we both fell for it.

How am I supposed to let you go when I know I can't. I'm just freaking forcing myself. Oh gosh.

Last time.

2012-02-22T22:41:00.001+08:00

I need to stop being brainwashed.
I learnt.

Dumbshit.

2012-02-22T18:29:00.001+08:00

People who believes, are often the ones who feel insecure in relationships. Or maybe they were just dumb.

Like shit.

2012-02-22T00:45:00.001+08:00

I could cut out that piece you want, just for you.

Have you ever felt like that you did so much for somebody but that somebody just don't sees it? It sucks.

Another month.

2012-02-21T01:29:00.001+08:00

19th on weekends makes me happy,
But when you spend a weekday with me,
I'd be over the moon. :)

Camps.

2012-02-08T01:31:00.001+08:00

So busy camping, didn't realize how fast time flies. Camping was really fun. I fulfilled my dream of being a camp instructor. But I've got this wish, that can only be completed if you helped me. Be there at my campfire night, please.

Camp High Achievers, my family.
INSTRUCTORS OEI!

Barker boys.

2012-01-30T00:48:00.001+08:00

I miss these kids, they're like my sons.
Surprisingly, I still remember all the 18names (from my group).

Feelings.

2012-01-07T08:17:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, it hurts instead.

Courage.

2011-12-24T16:10:00.001+08:00

I finally did it, I've cleared my conscience.
After so long, finally.
It took my a lot of courage to do so.

Kind of needing my book now because I'm stuck outside the house. :(

Brother.

2011-12-21T01:43:00.001+08:00

This is fat boy yo!
Will be stuck with him on the dumb car for 4hours+ tomorrow, goodness. :(
But well, after traveling for 4hours+ it would be heaven!
Then the following 2nights would be hell without my dearest,
And coming back would also be hell.
Coz I have to be in the car with this fat boy for 4hours+ again! :(

21st.

2011-12-19T03:06:00.001+08:00

Time flies, I just want to cherish you.
I know it's kind of impossible,
But I believe in miracles.
Don't ever leave, honey.
We'll write the best love story.

HA!

2011-12-16T20:20:00.001+08:00

Call me instructor Xiangting, MUAHAHAHA!

Went for training camp @ JBAC for 2d1n from 13-14dec. Surprisingly the training camp turns out to be fun rather than tough. I miss all the camp mates and trainers please, they're so awesome! I had a great time laughing during day and night because of Vicky and Farook! Hope I'll be able to do the same camp with them and other camp mates! Especially Sufang and Celes, I want to chat with them! ^^

Truth hurts, yep, for one short period of time. Lies just kills immediately. Make your choice.

Satisfied.

2011-12-11T04:58:00.001+08:00

Just being with you, I'm contented. :)
The feeling is just, indescribable.
I want to be your favorite girl.

Stupid girl.

2011-12-04T02:38:00.001+08:00

I'm so stupid, and silly. I do things for others without them asking for it. I was tired but I still went on with it. How dumb can I be?

Like you'll ever take it to heart that I did it for you.

Trust.

2011-11-26T02:35:00.001+08:00

Guess my words are hard to believe, because nobody believes me. And, it hurts okay. It freaking hurts. I don't like it. I always tried to be honest and I ended up being a bad person. What's life? This is life. Reality is cruel, life is unfair and it sucks. Sometimes I wanna die so badly.

I hate being honest, because whenever I'm honest, people doesn't believe me. It sucks, totally. I'm telling the true, swearing like nobody's business. I really told the truth.

Fml.

105.

Me.

2011-11-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

What am I?
I really don't know.
I can't sleep because I kept thinking,
Wondering what am I.
I can't feel the significance.

Another wonderful surprise.
And, comet!

Contented.

2011-11-21T01:27:00.001+08:00

It's the thought that counts.
I didn't mean to say those things,
I really like everything.
Thanks! :)

And, I'm officially 17 yo! :D

Weak.

2011-11-13T23:37:00.001+08:00

You don't actually know how weak I am. Actually, I'm really weak. I nearly fainted in the toilet today, how dumb.

Bestfriend.

2011-11-10T18:42:00.001+08:00

Elly tan. :)

Graduation day's pictures looked funny, remember that you asked me to take ONLY otah for you HAHA? See your face!! You always look funny in photos. :p

Thanks for all the funny things and being my listening ear always! ^^

5/1.

2011-11-10T17:58:00.001+08:00

O levels will be ending soon. I'm really happy on one hand, but, I'm scared and sad on the other hand too. I can't believe secondary school days are over. No more trying to talk back to the teachers, no more shouting & waving like crazy to the teachers, no more helping the teachers to carry stuffs, no more shouting in class, no more sleeping in class, no more playing in class.... Goodness, I'm gonna miss school, though I hate CCKSS. I love the teachers and friends there.

Mrs Cheryl Liew, Miss Lim Ciu Fung, Miss Theresa Sim, Mrs Adeline Tan, Miss Low Hui Shan, Mdm Jiang, Mdm Mency Lee, Miss Zehara, Mrs Jacob, Mrs Tang, Miss Sabrina Lim.
Mr Liew Hian Wai, Mr Rick Chan (a.k.a JOHNNY), Mr Tan Wee Liat, Mr David Lau, Mr Kumar.
I failed, I passed. Without you these awesome people, I'll never know how to solve those questions. I'll be in the dark, I won't know what to do. Others, thanks for your encouragements, it really helps! I'm not a gundu already lo, Johnny. ^^

Well, there's this person I would like to really thank too. She sat beside me for 3years, we never fail to laugh almost everyday. Thanks Elly, you're the best ever. Without you, I think I would be so lonely! Because you're always making me laugh in class hehe. I still remembered that you kept asking me to ask the class shut up because they damn noisy and you always no power to win them! I hope I can still shout for you in the future. I still want to sit beside you in class de! Thank you for these 3years, bestfriend. :)

Then winny, I'm gonna miss your whiney winny times. Always have to sacrifice my chocolate/biscuit so that you won't be sad or continue to whine. Like almost all the time lo! I still want to continue filling up our bottles at the water cooler with you! But, I guess no more chance le. I still can hear you whine eh? :)

Noelle, you dumb ass. You left halfway during sec 4. The days in school with you was fun, rebelling here and there! Basketball! Mr kong your bestfriend, Mr Liew my bestfriend, remember? :) we still in contact, that's the best ever.

Eva, though we've gone through real bad times during sec 1 and 2, but it's over. From sec 4, that's when we got close. You and your retarded actions, cannot forget your retardness. Like seriously. :)

Girls; fatrisyah, Genevieve, Ashikin, salina, Shahirah, Putri, Kartika, shafiqah, saniah, yuqi, sumitha, hidayu and Zhilin.
Boys; Lizhe, Brandon, junjie, fahmi, firman, habib, firdaus, haikal, syafiq, muhaimin, hirzi, junhao, siwei.
Those who left; stella, khalisah, Susila, sharmilla, nurul, nashwin, mikail, Rahiman.

(hope I didn't left anyone out!)
Maybe we aren't close, but I still remember your okay! Some of your made me laugh in class sometimes too, I will never forget. Especially during Miss Theresa Sim's class, all the funny funny answers popped out. Never once failed to laugh, even Miss Sim herself was laughing! So much memories with you guys, 5years/3years. But it felt like we've been longer than that, like donkey years! Our class rocks, though I really don't like some people and i feel disgusted sometimes (no offence). I still love 5/1, because we have an awesome form teacher, Mrs Liew. :)

I really hope that we'll have a class outing eh! I'll miss our noisy class. :)

1/3 '2007, 2/3 '2008,
3/2 '2009, 4/2 '2010, 5/1 '2011.
Triplethetwist-doublethefun,
It lives on.

Significance.

2011-11-07T07:05:00.001+08:00

Today, I realize how insignificant I was actually, to the world. It doesn't matter if I don't exist. Everything in this would still proceed successfully. I actually meant nothing when I thought I was actually something. How dumb of me.

I thought.

Liars.

2011-10-30T21:16:00.001+08:00

For all the bitches and jerks in the world, go to hell. For those flirts, go to hell. Damn it.

Those people who go back on their words for things that held a significant meaning should die. They are the reason why people stopped believing in everything, even the truth. They should just go to hell, they totally deserve it.

Bitch/jerk you should just go to hell. Freaking shit bitches/bastards. Stupid 38. These asshole bitches and jerks are why people stop believing in truths from another person. Tmd, go to hell, sucker.

Drifted.

2011-10-29T23:18:00.001+08:00

Drifting; the distance seems to be expanding.

Lost.

2011-10-27T20:38:00.001+08:00

Have you found it?
Maybe I'm not the one.
Because I'm just like any other girls you could find on the streets,
Well maybe a big difference.
I'm ugly, nearly forgotten this point.

But I'm me, angxiangting.
I know I'm not good enough,
Not up to other's standards.
But I've reached the peak.

Once bitten, twice shy.

2011-10-27T02:58:00.001+08:00

Because you've been hurt once,
It doesn't give you the rights to revenge on another.
That person you're going to hurt,
Is innocent.

I don't know what's on my mind now,
I really don't.
I wish it was me,
But it wasn't.

Freak, can't sleep. :(
I don't know why, tears welled up my eyes.
I don't know if I deserve this,
I really don't know.

I know.

2011-10-23T23:54:00.001+08:00

I know how to spell pain,
I don't need you to teach me..

It.hurts.me.

Have I not done enough....?

Sweet.

2011-10-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

You never know,
if you never make the effort to find out.

A girl in love is always in her sweetest dream.
Well, I guess in not exception.
You should have a taste of it too.
It's awesome, especially knowing that someone is deeply in love with you.

You have me, I'll always be there for you.

Growing up.

2011-10-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

I didn't change, I've grown up, to what I am.

People don't change,
They're just in the process of growing up.

Alone.

2011-10-04T23:02:00.000+08:00

Facing your nonsense alone.
Spare me, I hate your nonsense.

Stop it, No matter how you compare,
I'll never be as good as her, I'll never be able to replace her.
I'M AXT, NOT AXY, OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE.
What more do you want from me, seriously....

Happiness.

2011-10-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

Happiness doesn't stays for long,
Smile when it approached you.
Because it's a rare chance.

Think about the little things that makes life great,
Look at things from a different angle,
Perhaps it would be better than you thought. :)
Don't jump to conclusion yet,
Go through the introduction,
Like how you read instructions before you play a game.
Learn to be contented.

Lonely smurf.

2011-09-29T19:56:00.004+08:00

Like a lonely smurf.

Where did all the smurfs on earth go huh? :/

Broken dreams.

2011-09-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

My dreams shattered.
I know there's no way I could fulfill myself.
And I only could give up that dream.
It have always been my dream,
I always tried to learn it with my phone when I'm free.
It's really hard,
But I never gave up.
I really tried my best in learning it, myself.

You never know how much it hurts me inside.
When I'm here keeping all my feelings to myself,
So I wouldn't dampen the atmosphere.

Lighters.

2011-09-22T20:00:00.001+08:00

All I want to see, is a sky full of lighters.

We may be broken at times,
think back of what once made you happy,
and don’t hesitate to smile.
So what if you’re unhappy,
be optimistic.

God isn’t someone who is unfair.
Everyone is the child of god.
Every parents want the best for their children, so do god.
You could choose not to believe me but, believe god.
Without him, there’s no you at all.
You're not living in the era of Hitler,
There is a fair trial alright, no worries.

I can't live without sports,
I really can't.

S.M.U.R.F.

2011-09-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

Smurf is the new black yo! :)

Smurf here, smurf there, smurf everyday!
Prelims ends tomorrow yo!
Can't believe my last exam in secondary is finally ending.
Tine flies, it really does.
Another month to o level le,
BC classmates counting down to it. ^^
Let's go smurfing hehe. :p

I can't wait for prelims to end,
then os and then attend poly camps and work! :)

Centuries.

2011-09-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

The flyer had already revolved a zillion times.

Question: when will it be my turn?

I wonder if we're still living in the times of dinosaur.
Or are we back at the 21st century already?

This.

2011-09-08T19:50:00.001+08:00

This is it.

Optimism.

2011-09-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

I'd pretend and look away,
just to look on the brighter side of life.

I know I'm different, super different.
But I ain't a freak..
I just want to be me,
I just want to pull things backs to where it should be,
but I don't think I have the strength to.

Optimism, stop playing hide and seek with me now.
Exams are coming, I have no mood to play with you.

In search of optimism.

Konfeedunsio.

2011-09-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

Polaroid Land Camera.

I want this, but I doubt I could find this now. :(
1944 version.

Prelims is like 9days away. Really got to work on my subjects!
By this weekend must finish memorizing three quarter of humanities ah. :(
shall go study le, toodles.

Twisted Fairytales.

2011-08-29T00:58:00.001+08:00

Sorry, information not available.

Let me tell a story, I'm just bored by the way. :o
Please note that this story totally have no link to anything that's happening in the real world. :)
This is a twisted fairytale, super epic. :o

There was once a little girl who fell in love with somebody. Her name was Alice. She fell in love with Jabberwocky. She knew that she wasn't supposed to fall in love with the Jabberwocky but she couldn't help it. She have a mission, it was to kill it. But instead of killing it, her love grew deeper for it. They secretly got together. The Jabberwocky wasn't a human, that's the problem. Alice didn't know what to do, but just to carry on. Jabberwocky loves freedom and prioritize their privacy most. Alice wasn't suppose to touch the Jabberwocky's items without permission. As days past by, nothing changes. Alice still remains as a secret of the Jabberwocky, just like how the Jabberwocky was a secret of Alice's. They didn't want it either, but it was fated. Alice didn't gave up, she waited. Because she believed in hopes, she believed in miracles. She believed that one day, the Jabberwocky would be no harm to the society. But for now, they're enemies in front of people and strangers in the social network world.

Gahhhh, I still have no idea how to do social studies.. Help me... :(

Shout it out.

2011-08-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

You wouldn’t know it when someone’s wearing a mask.
Because, humans are masters of masquerade.

How do you spell love?
L-O-V-E.
How do you spell hate?
H-A-T-E.

Saw the difference?
God taught people to forgive and forget.
I know god will forgive me for hating some idiots. :)
But maybe after some time,
The anger in me will ceased.
I want to stop hating.
God taught us to forgive & forget,
But my form teacher taught me to love.
Yes, she's like my mummy, she's mrs cheryl Liew. :)
She say, love your haters, love everyone.
It's going to make life better & easier for yourself. :)

If I was given a chance,
I’d protect it like it was my heart. I would protect it with all my might.

Sometimes, when you love someone too much,
you will be more afraid of losing that person.

Hummingbird heartbeat.

2011-08-24T23:44:00.001+08:00

Hummingbird heartbeat. ♥

Don’t let anger overtake you, I’ve beaten that devil in my body. I’ve conquered it. I no longer let that angry bird take over me so easily, I no longer get angry like a little petty kiddo. I just don’t want to cause anymore trouble for anyone. I don’t want anyone around me to get upset because of me freaked up attitude.

I know I have a very serious attitude problem.
A problem I had since I was 13.
Over the years I really had been trying to change.
No matter what, people wouldn’t change their impression of me.
I wish I didn’t create so much trouble in the past. I just wanna be a good girl, really.

Trouble trouble, please stay away from me. I’ve already been stressed about school work, 18days to prelims. Guess what I’ve covered? A few chapters of chemistry, maths, elective geography, core history and social studies. I’ve yet to cover and get familiar with all the subjects. I’m so dead. :( d&t FINAL submission’s tomorrow, yet, I haven’t did my explode drawings and evaluation! :(

Stressed.

Even when seasons change,
My love for you stays the same.

Blood related love.

2011-08-23T22:52:00.001+08:00

The sun goes up,
The sun goes down.
Whatever, does it even matter?
It only matter whether you came.
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He loved me like I'm his only,
he gives me everything I want with all he have,
he never stopped caring about me
even when I had scream at him like over a zillion times.

He's my dad.
I'm daddy's precious,
Don't you dare lay a finger on me.
Because his gonna break your arms.

My cousins love my dad,
because he's nice.
Since young, everyone sticks to him and I always get jealous.
Everyone was shocked when I shouted
"she also not your daughter why you so good/close to her?!"
I got jealous whenever someone's so close to my dad...

Because I love my dad too.

Could anyone love me more than my dad did?
But all I know was I actually loved someone more than I love my dad.
That person made me promise that I'll never shout at my dad.

I promised.

True Love.

2011-08-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

The person who really loves you, will never go with the wind but stand strong with you. ♥

True love always makes you feel great,
True love is not only about going through only the good times with your partner,
But both the good and the bad times.
I hope it that it does make sense. :)

God didn't forced you to be with the person you are with now,
you make choices,
you choose who you want to be with.
But if you're unable to get the person you want,
you have to work hard to get it.
Some times, you'll realized that actually there are better ones out there.
Well, when you have chosen someone you LOVED,
don't give up for someone you LIKED.
Because one day, the one you LIKED,
will leave you for the one he/she LOVED. :)

We could be strangers in reality,
at least, we aren't strangers in my dreams.

I don't like you, you know.
I love you, more than you know.

But some times;
If only I could suffer from concussion now,
My heart wouldn't be aching.

Reliability.

2011-08-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder,
how could one tell her that he miss her,
when he's out with another girl.
How reliable can that be?
I've learnt history and social studies,
I've learnt how to cross refer.
I jolly well know what the answer is,
and I could score full marks for this if it comes out for o levels.
I mean, who can't tell that it's unreliable?
Unless your an idiotic dumb ass. :)

Don't quit or give up,
when struggle you face,
those who keep trying will finish the race.
We don't become weaker,
we grow stronger.
So pull yourself together and face the obstacle.
Believe you can do it and you will over come it.
Because I believed, and I did it.

Believe me, believe yourself.
Nobody could help you,
if you don't help yourself because,
nobody knows you better than you know yourself.

Elated vs. Disappointment.

2011-08-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

I guess it's better to be cheerful,
Than pulling a long face.
It doesn't help,
It doesn't makes anything better.
Get a life, just be happy and smile. :)

And this person here made me happy today hehe.
She's my cousin, yee. :)
We're as close as sisters. :)

I didn't get A1 for Chinese o level,
I'm gonna retake my written papers at the en of year,
Because I'm not gonna waste my distinction for Chinese oral exam.
And, I ain't gving up.

A1.

2011-08-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

A+. :/

Would I be able to get A1 for my Chinese o level paper?
I hope so, I don't doubt my ability to get it.
But, my written paper was screwed. :(
Hopefully my listening compre and oral pulled me up.
Hopefully.
I don't want to take it again, it sucks. :/
I hate writing Chinese characters. :/
Pray pray pray.
If I get A1, it'll motivate me to do well in other subs too! :/

I want L1R4, 9points.
I will work really hard for it.
Psychologist course @ temasek poly, wait for me. :)

Pray for me please. :/

Dream.

2011-08-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

There are two choices.
You can choose to work hard towards your dreams,
Or you can choose to only dream on forever.
Which one did you choose?

I chose to work hard towards my dream.
As a kid, I've always wanted to learn and play piano.
After o levels, I'm gonna work and get myself a clavinova.
I'm going to get it at the end of December, I will. :)
As for my braces, kind of no hope hehe.
well, Clavinova comes first. ^^
I'm gonna get it. :)

Your dreams would only come true if you work hard towards it.

Bubble heart.

2011-08-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

Remember....? ♥
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Love is... when you think about that person,
You would smile.

I smile secretly whenever I think about you.
I can be happy just by thinking about you.
I know I really want you.
I hope time will make you realize that,
I hope time will prove to you that my feelings wouldn't change.

For that I'm a weirdo,
Believe me.

That's love.

2011-08-14T20:46:00.001+08:00

And I was like, baby, baby baby ohhh~.
Baby, baby baby noooo~.
♥
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So over you, I'm insane.
I don't know why, I don't know how.
But just somehow, I could dream of you,
Almost all the time.
It's like, I want you in reality,
And in my dreams.
I just want to be with you,
I don't want you to leave my sight,
You know?

Can you stay and not leave?

I could only pray that you'll never leave me behind...

Traumatized....

Like a kid.

2011-08-11T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'm like a kid, hot tempered.
I'm like a kid, throwing my temper.
I'm like a kid, being petty over small matters.
I'm like a kid, determined to get what I want.

Yes, I'm like a kid.
Leave me if you can't stand me,
Because the person who will stay,
Is the one that truly knows who I really am.

My determined character left me with an empty stomach tonight.
I don't wanna lose,
I don't wannna give up.
I don't want to be just saying,
I want to act as I say.
I'm not eating dinner, that's it.
I know I'm strong enough to sleep with an empty stomach,
Even with the gastric pain.

Because nobody cares,
I'm just a secret afterall.

Don't leave.

2011-08-10T23:11:00.002+08:00

(copyrighted yo)

It feels like heaven,
When he held on to my hand.
I wish I don't have to let go, but I had to.
It's not only me,
Nobody could hold on to their partner's hand ALL the time yeah?
If that person want go toilet,
Then need let go le right!
But my situation was different,
We have to go on separate ways and say "bye".
It's life, life is like that.
Reality is cruel, so do reality give a damn about you?

Sorry to say no.
Life sucks, but live everyday to the fullest,
Because life is short too.
Life won't always be the way you want it to be,
Just go with it, don't be finicky.
Because someday, you'll come to realize that it's actually great too.

11:11, I'll pray for you.

Bang.

2011-08-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

I guess I'm the most dumb person on earth,
I knocked into the toilet door and ended up getting a hump on my head. -_-

I guess people will be like laughing,
Or even like say "seriously?".
Yes, I'm very serious,
I've got a hump just right beside my left eye now.
This was how it happened;
I flushed the toilet and turned,
Wanting to bathe but I ended up knocking into the door.
And tadaaaa~, that's how my hump came by.

I felt so dumb. :(
But that's me yo.
I'm angxiangting, the nerd & dumb.
Your entertainment. :')

Ill-tempered kiddo.

2011-08-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

Am I blessed, or just pampered?
I'm lucky to be pampered,
Even when I'm ill-tempered.
It rhymes! :o

Could you even believe that I throw my temper easily?
I had a devil inside me,
Controlling my temper.
Well, I'll fight this devil out of me soon.

Dear dad, I wish that you'll be happy.
I wish I could cheer you up,
Just like how you cheered me up when I was down,
Or when I quarrelled with mummy.
This time, it was different.
No wonder I'm like this,
inherited much of mummy's genes.
People said that I look like mummy,
But dad says that I have the same blood as mummy,
and the same kind of temper with mummy. (bad temper)
So me and mummy can never quarrel,
Because it would cause world war three to happen.

In this world,
I've been pampered by two man.
I love them both. :)
Thanks for doting me so much,
That much that words can never express.

The pampered little girl. [c]

Silence.

2011-08-04T17:36:00.000+08:00

When I keep quiet,
It doesn't mean because I'm at a loss for words,
It's because I'm hurt and I don't wish to talk about it anymore.
I prefer silence over screams.

You are not alone,
Because I'll always be here for you.
Don't be afraid to rant,
I'll never get bored of it.
Don't worry, I'll never leave.
Just a call from you and I'll be there.

You may know a person's face,
But you may not know that person's heart.

Bye.

2011-08-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

I never love saying bye,
To you but not anyone else.

If you lost your way home,
I'll be the star to guide you home.
If it's dark tonight,
We'll light up the world with our love.

Smile, it really makes a difference.

& I'm back with my bangs! ^^

Sister. (L)

2011-08-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

I hold grudges,
I hold grudges,
I hold grudges.
Just leave me alone,
Even if you ask me to forgive you after 10years,
My answer will still be NO.
I'll never forgive people who committed a "crime" in my life.
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My dearest sister, my blood sister.
We might fight when we were young,
Over toys and over little matters.
But now we're both grown up.
I know that you're sad to leave Singapore now.
I don't know how you felt,
But I know that I would miss you too.
We still have got a lot things to talk about.
I still want to exchange information about our dream guy,
I still want to compete with you and see who's prince was better.
I really do hope to see you soon again and go shopping,
I wish you the best for your studies.
I love you sister. :)

We've got the same bangs sister! ^^

Ohloveeee.

2011-08-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

Shannen's my favorite girl now!
Hehe, she's super duper cute please!
I miss her already, feel like playing with her. :(
Really had lots of fun playing and running around with her on Saturday. :)
Hope that she won't forget me,
I bet that she'll grow up to be a big beauty like mrs Liew. :)
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I just can't get you off my mind,
I think about you every single day.
I never stopped thinking about you,
It seems like there's a part of you in me.
I'm just so used to it,
And there's no way to get rid of it.
I'm happy with it, really.
I wish that we could live in a world that belongs to us,
And you'll never leave me in that world.
That would be awesome,
I would leave the real world with you for that kind of happiness.
Love is simple.

You live, in me.

Regret.

2011-07-28T17:02:00.000+08:00

I have lots of things that I regretted,
But here came the biggest regret.
I regret not working hard enough,
Not fighting hard enough for it.
Even till now, I haven't got hold of it.
I wonder when would I get it.
When? One day before I die? :/

Sometimes I wonder,
Is it only that when someone is dying,
Or when someone is about to die,
Others around them will then start thinking about the things that person done for them?
Or others will then think about the times they shared together?
Isn't it too late by then?
Because you'll never be able to mend them in that 24hours.
Could you?
You can't... You can't make it up to that person anymore..
Because that person do not have the strength to laugh anymore,
That person do not have the time to spare anymore......
It's too late to make amendments.
The last and only thing you could do,
Is to stay by their side and never leave their sight for that last 24hours..

There are many things you can buy with money.
But there are many many precious things that you'll never be able to buy,
with your filthy money.
You can't buy true love and time with money.
Time will not rewind, you can't buy them back anymore,
They turn into memories of the past.
If you had to let go, just freaking let go.
No point hanging on.
True love, you only get it ONCE in your life.
Open your eyes wider and see who the real one is.
Don't make the wrong mistakes and then say sorry,
Because you know the true one haven't came by.
Just say it out, it's better to suffer a short pain,
Compared to a life long one.
I'd rather die, if I were to encounter one.
I don't wanna be a fool, because I'm not.

Unfortunately, the person that comforted me,
The person that was stronger than me,
Couldn't forget the past when that person,
Successfully persuaded me in forgetting and letting go of the past.
It's ironic isn't it?

I could fake a smile everyday in my life,
You wouldn't know when I really smiled.
Because my fake smile was too real,
And my real smile wasn't fake either.
I'm used to faking it, nobody realized it.
Only the ones that know you well,
Could tell that you aren't happy.

Wishing well.

2011-07-27T17:15:00.001+08:00

I have a very weird wish,
I wish that everybody forgets about it.
I wish the world forgets about me.
I wish, I wish...

I hate the cruelty of reality.
I'm on the verge of giving up,
Giving myself to death.
I no longer have the motivation,
I no longer felt the world.
I didn't want to escape nor avoid,
I just want some peace, relaxation, happiness.

AngXiangTing was already half dead,
Her soul died, in her.

But can you believe,
My heart is still beating,
For you..

Move on.
Stop thinking about the past,
because you won't be able to mend it anymore.
You'll never be able to move on if you don't put down the past.
And, I'm not moving on without you.
I'm going to stay with you, and help you pull through everything.

Letting go, forgetting.

2011-07-26T17:00:00.000+08:00

Letting go, forgetting, completely.
It's only when you've let go completely,
Then you'll be able to love someone.
If you have let go completely,
You wouldn't think of it.
If you haven't forgotten,
You wouldn't be able to love someone fully.
You wouldn't, never, really.

Let go when it's time.
If you haven't, it's time to let go, completely.
Give yourself time, time heals.
Time is the best medicine to everything.
It's time to let go.
It's already the past.
There's a reason why they didn't accompany you to present,
And to the future.
Because they wasn't fated to, they left before they could do so.

And, most of them suck, too.
To hell with bitches and jerks, screw you all.

Forever.

2011-07-25T22:13:00.001+08:00

I believe you will.

It doesn't matter if some minor promises are broken,
But I really matter if the major ones broke.
Because I've placed 100% of my hopes in the major ones.
When it breaks, I break too, into pieces.

It's only monday and I can't wait for Friday to come le, gosh..
O levels faster finish so I can travel...
Can't even go overseas now, haiz...
Got money also no use, freaking useless..
This god damn money can't buy me time, damn it.

If I tell you that I'm going somewhere far for long,
Right after my o levels,
Would you still remember me after a year?

What are words.

2011-07-24T21:15:00.001+08:00

"What are words if you don't really mean them when you say them?"
"When it's love, you say them loud, those words, they never go away even when we're gone."
-- What are words. (Chris Medina)

Words can hurt,
They weigh more than you ever thought.
Don't say and then never do it.
If you say it, then do it.
Don't make those words go meaningless,
Don't make those words go empty.
Every single word weighs differently,
Holding different meanings.
Like "love" and "hate",
They're both very strong words.
Don't misuse them.

Karma's my girlfriend,
I know what will happen if these words are being misused.

When you need me, I'll be by your side.
But when I need you, would you be there for me, too?
I'll be here forever.

Wishes.

2011-07-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

There's many things that I wanna complete before I graduate from CCKSS.
People tend to stop doing things for others,
People tend to forget promises made long ago,
When they have new friends.

My dearest netballers.
My greatest wish is to bond you guys.
I regretted not bonding your earlier,
Perhaps people wouldn't quit,
Perhaps people wouldn't hate netball,
If I had bonded you guys earlier.
I was the ex captain, it's my job to bond your.
But look, conflicts after conflicts.
I guess I've failed my job.
But, I will still try to bond your.
I wouldn't give up.
I know one day I'll stop going back to CCKSS.
I know one day I'll come up with tons of excuses to escape your.
Just give me one more chance to bond you guys,
As well as a farewell chalet for my dear graduatee teammates.
It's my 5th year, in netball (team) I'm the oldest.
Listen to me once more.
Don't miss the chalet that I'll be organizing.
I'm the freaking organizer, don't let me down.
I just want you guys to be more than a team when I left CCKSS.
That's my wish.

Shaffhia, manage the team well alright. :)
I want to see a stronger team next year! :)

Next, I know when i get new things,
I forget about old ones.
I will not forget my bestfriends, netballers, of course,
And the memories in CCKSS.
They are precious to me,
Too much to lose.
But one day, I'd eventually forget.
To let me continue remembering,
Don't stop contacting me!
Because I have short term memory.
I hate CCKSS, but the friends and teachers there are lovely. :)

I love CCKSS netball batch 2007.
Noelle lim, Tham Xuemei, Dayang,
Hartini, susila, Samantha, charis.
I will never forget my own team. ^^

Blessed kiddo.

2011-07-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

Everyone is fortunate but,
some people didn't realized that they were fortunate all along.
(生在福中不知福.)

I myself realized how fortunate I was,
Only when I was 15years old and few months old,
Before I turned 16years old last year,
I realized that I was very fortunate.
I'm a blessed kiddo to be able to have almost everything I want,
And something that not everybody could be able to have.
And today was the 16th,
None of us forgotten it.
We both remembered,
But we were both waiting for each other to say it first.
We dragged it, delay it, but we never forget it. :)
I'm happy, I thank god for everything.
I thank the people around me for the happiness shared,
Especially the one and only I heart.
Thanks a lot. :)

Though we didn't get to spend today together,
It's okay, we could postpone it. :)
I'm happy today because I finally bought the things I want! :)

Got to sleep now, goodnight earthlings. :)

Wee!

2011-07-16T23:16:00.001+08:00

My wish came true even before I saw 11:11 hehe! ^^

I'm a happy kiddo now,
Going out soon.
I know it's kind of late,
But whatever hehe! ^^

English class tomorrow!
Excited to meet my stranger-friends & teacher again! :)
3rd week of class tomorrow.
2months and 1week to go! :)

Questioned.

2011-07-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

People asked me if I've ever imagined what it would be like to break up.
My answer is no.
I've never imagined that because I never want it to happen,
who wants to break up in a relationship that is worth fighting for?
I'm not dumb, I'm not 6years old anymore.
You can't give me a sweet and tell me to leave,
just because I'll get more sweets.
Perhaps that will work if I'm only 6,
But hello~, I'm 16!
I am stubborn and I fight for things that are worth fighting for!
I know what I'm doing,
I can tell what is right and what is wrong.

The journey ahead of us is long,
We only live once, why not look on the positive side?

I am contented with what I have now, happy much. :)
I will continue fighting for my future,
A happy one. :)

It's only 4days away. :)

Insane!

2011-07-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh, tests are driving me bonkers.

It's ironic, that I'm studying history,
When I hate raking up the past.

Today social studies test,
Tomorrow history test.
Gosh, I'm becoming insane soon! :(

My head is bursting so,
I'm just gonna read through and understand now!
No more memorizing except geography. :x

Memorizing is hard,
Understanding makes life 10times better.

Dang, I can't live through the next 2days la. :(

Remember?

2011-07-12T17:37:00.001+08:00

Remember the days,
Remember the times,
that we were together.

Your smile makes me happy,
Your words makes me better.
Yesterday was a disaster,
But you never failed to make me better.
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Because you was never the one,
You never felt it.
Everyone is afraid of getting hurt,
That they forgotten they will hurt others,
Without knowing it.

I hate criticism.
I don't live to please you.
I hate being your replacement.
It sucks, TOTALLY.

Sometimes you made me feel like I shouldn't had exist.
But eventually, another person pulls me back stronger.
Everytime I fall, you push me back down.
What the heck do you want.
I had enough, really.

Disappointed.

2011-07-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

False hopes.
Everytime I believe in hopes,
it breaks me down into pieces.
I'm never going to believe in hopes again.
To hell with hopes.
Hopes screwed my damn life.

Expectations.
The more you expect, the more disappointed you get.
My intuitions failed me, I'm never gonna make high expectations.
Coz the feeling of disappointment really sucks.
I don't wanna expect anymore,
My intuitions had been always accurate.
But nope, not for certain things.
I'm stupid, blame myself for being a,
Freaking shit dumb stupid foolish idiotic asshole.

Last but not least,
I'm just kidding.

False hopes, lost memories.

2011-07-06T22:34:00.002+08:00

A false hope is like a broken promise.
Just that they are different,
In meaning and spelling.
But hey, look closer, don't they "looked" alike?
They are both things that don't come true,
Like a dream but not dejavu.

Dreams, it seems near but it isn't.
It's like so near, yet so far.

Dreams, sometimes so hard to differentiate from reality.
It feels like I've been given a false hope, over and over again.

It felt so real, really.
But yet, I can't touch it, I could only feel it.
The real was all fake, it was just a dream after all.
Dreams, they don't come true so easily.
If they do, people don't have to study, work or do anything.

Dream, you are my dream.
You appear in my dreams very often.
What does that mean?
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Some memories are left behind time and long forgotten, but some aren't.
Lost memories are like a little kid who lost his way home.
Memories won't come looking for you.

Tired..

2011-07-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

Apparently, it's 12:54am now.
I should be sleeping,
I am tired. :(
But I just wanted to wait,
For a reply.

Just that one reply would make my day,
I'll be contented and fall asleep right away.
But right now, I don't even know if I should hold on to hopes.
......
I GOT A REPLY!
Okay kind of rush but whatever.
I got it! :)
I'm gonna sleep now,
Waking up in like 6hours time, gosh. :(

Goodnight earthlings!

Buzzy bee.

2011-07-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

We are both busy bees,
We have our own things to do,
But we never forget each other.
Thank god that I have you. :)

Well, today it took hours to get something from you,
But I don't blame you. :)
Though I missed you. :/
Well, time to do homework!

Toodles!

Strong, yet fragile.

2011-07-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken easily.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

Strong, yet fragile.
Do you understand what love is?
Love is not a smart-aleck thingy.
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Love takes two person,
Not more than that.

I only have you in my heart,
And it will always have a special place there.

You'll never get bored of the person you love.
If you do.. there is a problem.

Love.

2011-07-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

I only want to lead a simple life,
Without stress and be happy with the person I loved.
But, you know that's impossible.
Even a 7year old kid could say it's stress,
What about me?
I'm 17, I felt even more stress.

But, I got the love I've always wanted,
The person who have always been my dream guy,
Is sleeping soundly right beside me.
That's all I want,
I felt blessed even watching him sleep.
You don't need to be rich to be loved.
This is the love I've been looking for,
With the right guy.

Even when my life is stress now,
With him, everything feels great.
My life is awesome.

Thanks baby,
if not for you, I wouldn't know what "happy" was about.

Grown up.

2011-07-02T17:22:00.002+08:00

I guess time really speeds,
It felt like i haven't seen you for 38462days,
But actually it was like I last seen you on Sunday.

Looking back, and then now,
I'm turning 17years old in 4months time.
It sucks, because I'm getting older!
But the good thing was, I've grown up,
I've became more mature compared to the past.
Those times I ran away from home,
they were just part of me being rebellious.
Now I just have to make a call home and tell my parents that I ain't going home,
But I don't have to do so,
Because most of the times dad will call me.
My attitude got from worse to good.
Isn't it good that my attitude isn't sucky. ^^
I've learnt a lot of things as I grow.
Everything is just a part of growing up, isn't it?
So yaaaa, grown up.

I didn't changed, not at all,
I've grown up.

Sister. ♥

2011-07-02T12:39:00.002+08:00

Firstly, this post is dedicated to Jia. :)

For her, this post shall be in chinese!

But with translation, of course. :)

My dearest sister, minjia. ^^

Jia & Me. :)

对不起咯!

这些照片都是我最后一次跟你拍的.

今天是你的生, 虽然不能够和你庆祝,

我还是要祝你生日快乐.

希望你天天开心, 比赛那第一, 考试考前十名!

一直以来都把你当成妹妹看待,

有空要来新加坡找我哦!

等我考完试就回去马来西亚跟你们一起出门! :)

14岁了哦, 长大了, 要加油哦. ^^

快点来新加坡, 我借你玩我的电话! :x

(Sorry luh! These pictures was the latest photos i have with you.

Today is your birthday, although i can't celebrate with you,

i still want to wish you happy 14th birthday.

Hope that you'll be happy everyday,

get first in your competitions, top 10 for your exams.

I've always treated you like my little sister,

remember to come visit me in singapore when you're free!

After i finish my exams, i'll go back malaysia and go out with you guys. :)

14years old le o, grow up le, must jiayou o. ^^

Faster come singapore, i'll lend you my phone to play! :x)

Happy 14th Birthday, Minjia ♥. :D

"Why".

2011-07-01T22:38:00.001+08:00

I may look like I'm fierce,
But in fact I'm very talkative and noisy.
Since I begun talking when I was still a toddler or younger,
I have been asking "why" non-stop.
I asks questions that are logical and nonsensical,
I ask "why" all the time to either assure myself or when I'm curious.
I'm keen to know why, and I want to know why.
Once I started asking and I don't get my answer,
I will become very irritating and starts bugging you for answer.
If that happens, I can't control myself.
Because I just want to know why.
Whether the answer is what I'm thinking or it hurts,
I just want my answer, yes or no.
It's that simple, but I've a millions of "why(s)" in my head.
Don't ask me why, because I'll ask you why.

I'm born a scorpio,
And yes, I'm born to ask why.
Curiosity is one out of the many characteristics #Scorpios have.

But curiosity kills,
When you don't get your answer, you start to guess,
You assume things, like me.

I wished that I ain't born like this, too.
I shall stop asking "why".

Fake.

2011-06-30T18:33:00.001+08:00

Not everyone can tell the difference, isn't it?
Fake or real, you don't even know.
Because some of it looked real,
But as time pass by,
Everything will start to change.
It will start to show its true colours.
Just beware, don't trust the wrong person.

No point explaining if someone doesn't believes you,
Because the person who explains all the time,
Will start to get tired after some time.
If that person is telling the truth,
Believe that person, let that person know.
Don't make it look like you don't trust that person,
It really hurts.

But also, play safe.

Thoughts ran wild.

2011-06-29T19:01:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, sometimes we shouldn't be thinking so much.
Isn't it?

Thinking sometimes makes thing worst,
empty your mind and be happy.

We only live once, why not live happily.
I'm going to be happy everyday from today onwards.

When life knocks you down,
It's your choice whether you want to get back up.
You need to make a stand,
Get a life.

Don't worry, be happy.
Dont forget, laugh as you live with your everyday.
Make everyday meaningful,
Because, who knows if there would be any disaster hitting earth tomorrow?

Love.

2011-06-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

Love, I didn't know what it was till I met you.

I wish I could go on sunday,
But I have an English class starting from this sunday.

I just want you.

Dead.

2011-06-28T00:38:00.001+08:00

My blog's so dead,
Right now I just wanna focus on my diary.

I don't want to forget,
Neither do I want to be forgotten.
Don't forget me,
Remember me.

O level.

2011-05-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

Chinese o level paper 1 & 2 down.
Kind of worried, though i wrote a lot.
Because i seem to be crapping a lot.
Well, it's over, shall not talk about it.

Stressed.

2011-04-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

Studying for my core history,
4th day but still stuck at chapter 3.
Starting everything from scratch,
I'm sure I can do it.
No time for posts, toodles.

Freaking stressed.

MYE.

2011-04-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Chinese prelims papers down.
Working towards my As.

Just filling up.

2011-04-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-26T22:25:00.001+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Just filling up.

2011-04-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.

Once a close friend.

2011-04-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

I remembered.

But, i don't know why,

everything changed.

Just filling up.

2011-04-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just to have a post everyday,
Blahblahblah.